"Still here!?"

I know your still here...
Dont you worry,
I know.
thanks for being here.

It was nice.
I'm so glad.

May God give us more strenght!
Strenght to LOVE again.

"Lonely"

In the las couple of days, I really feel this emptiness inside me. I feel Lonely. So ALONE. I don't know why. Maybe because it's true. As if I'm always reaching out to anybody. But still I end up being left alone. Well maybe it's just me. Honestly, I don't like that kind of feeling. I'm always looking forward on meeting SOMEONE who would make me COMPLETE. Who would appreciate even the small things I do. HOPING you holding me at my side...

... Still...
...Alone...

...back again...

...sssshhhhhhh.....
...Still I CARE...

...Still I Love...

"When it's really over"
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This is one of the mornings after another sleepless night that I cannot help not ask myself, why didn't I have agood night sleepagain? Then I would just joke myself and answer it with, maybe someone's been thinking of me all night.... hahaha! Jokes are always half-meant, a friend once said. And maybe...just maybe, behind that joke, there's this wishful thinking that someone has really been thinking of me. Then the memory of someone from the past would, again, bounce in my head... disturb my sanity and make my day half-miserable. What if SHE's thinking about me? What if SHE still loves me? It's just another imagination, I know. Another dayof what if's and maybe's. For the nth time, I've told myself that when it's over, it's really over! There's no sense turning back or even trying to pick up the pieces again. It's time to move on and face the reality! When it's over, is it really over? When you decide to let go, doyou really succeed in letting go? I just heard the latest song of Sugar Ray awhile ago. Here's the few lines that caught myattention: "When it's over, That's the time I fall in loveagain... When it's over, That's the time you're in myheart again..". How can you possibly say it's over when you're still in love with the person you said you were over with already? I guess it's not that easy when the chain of the past locks you in the chest of false hopes and leads you to a place called fantasy with Cinderella and Snow white as your best friends! How pathetic! But, admit it or not, it's true... The hardest part of losing a loved one is to accept the fact that they're gone and migh never come back again. There are things that will always remind you of your togetherness... the places you've been, his or her favorite food you used to cook for him or her, expressions you used to hear from him or her and songs you've both loved to sing.> These are the memories that linger on your mind from time to time.Because you were both in love before (or so you think), it makes you hope for another chance. You begin to believe on what others said that love is lovelier the second time around and the line from Ally McBeal, "whoever said that 'plenty of fish in the sea' thing is lying. Sometimes, there's only one...trust me." We would desperately believe that what happens in the movies might also happen to us one day. Who didn't like the lines from the movie "Runaway Bride" where Julia Roberts told Richard Gere, "I guarantee that we'll have toughtimes; I guarantee that in some point, one of us would want to get out; I also guarantee that if I don't ask you to be mine, I'll regret this for the rest of my life, 'coz I know in my heart... you're the only one for me." We tend to think that the person who left us will come back one day and say those words, or just simple words but would promise forever. Problems may occur every now and then, but we would consider those things as trials to be conquered in order for the relationship to bloom and mature. Oouucchh! Reality just hit me! More often than not, these romantic movies and mushy love songs only make us long for something we cannot have... and for someone who cannot be ours again. It hurts to admit that we are just pretending. Allthe while, we already knew the truth but we ignore it. When the damage is done, there's nothing left to do but cry... to mourn for the bitterness in our hearts. Then curse anybody who gets in the way. I'm scared!! As long as we still hold on to the past, the chance of meeting someone new may be a bit far off the field. The fear of trusting and falling in love again may also hinder us to grow and move on. We are hesitant to take the risk, afraid that we may get hurt again. Because of the negative thoughts stocked in our brains, we refuse to go out from our self-made world and deprive ourselves from new opportunities, whether in love affairs or career wise. Let's face it! Betrayal can be anywhere and anyone can be a victim. The worst part is when the one we truly, madly and deeply love is the one who will betray us in the end. Then we are left with nothing but a broken heart and wounded pride. Sad... but true. Reality check please... It can happen to anyone but we shouldn't just take things as itcomes.An action must be done. We should take care of ourselves from the hungry wolves in the jungle. It's just a matter of survival. Standup when you fall. It's okay to cry as hard and as long as you want to, just make sure that when you stop crying, youwon't cry for the same reason anymore. Learn and live. Love is the most wonderful thing one can offer, so be smart enough to give the love in your heart to the one who really deserves it.
Amen to that!

"Busy"

Last week was a busy week for me. So many things to be done yet so little time. Heavy traffic hit Manila last monday night. Due to heavy rains for just 30 minutes, I was stuck in traffic for two straight hours. I got home Around 9:30pm. To think I have to get packed for the next days activity. Yes Packed. I went to BATAAN. Abucay, Bataan to be excact. Well, it's not what you think. It's all work baby! But the thing is, I got to travel. I love road trips. I go get to see the site and I was fortunate to be sitting in front beside the driver. It was a two day trip. We stayed in a resort. Never got the chance to dip in the pool, so tired, so little time yet so many things to do. I got home the next day around 10:30pm. But the trip was worth it. Experience wise speaking. Bataan is a quiet place, and the food is cheap too. You can eat a whole lot with less pay. I think this week is going to be busy as well. With all the activies coming and my prelimenary exam, it will sure make me busy. well I have to get ready, I'm going to a ball game. LETRAN vs. UPHR in Cuneta Astrdome this afternoon. till then...

By the way, I was at Batuel's place last night, and I must say, I dont know what came over me. I'm suddenly SHY. It's Gwen's 1st Bday. I don't know what's the right term but I know it's NAIILANG. Yup, I don't know why, but I feel "naiilang". I guess some things never change but it would really be never be the same way again after THE END. But anyway that's just me. It was fun laughing again with JP and Gwen, but I also need to step back. It will be much more difficult for me if I will be attached to them that much. But I can't lie, I really missed them so much, and I can see on their faces they missed me too. Hope I'll get over this soon. Happy 1st Bday Gwennie!

"Misssing"

I miss a lot of things. Things WE used to do, WORDS WE used to say, things that make US SMILE, simple or complicated, I miss it all. But now your gone, do you miss those things too? I miss the WORDs you would tell me before going to sleep. I miss the text messages you would sent me. But, its all over now. Just MISSING you. Okay, so much for the missing parts. Back to reality...youre the ONE that GOT AWAY, do you mis me too?
Hahaha. What a question? I'm asking a question which I already know the ANSWER.

...ERROR PROCESSING DATA...

...ABORT...

...BAD COMMAND OR FILE NAME...

...DELETING...

...SHUTTING DOWN...

...YOU!!...